Sometimes I just wanna scream!
I often feel like the cards are stacked against me. I try so hard to stay away from the news but it always finds a way to permeate into my life. Something I have recognized about being in college is that you are given much more information about the outside world. Outside translating to what is beyond your nuclear family and life. This can be overwhelming because you can easily drown yourself in doubt. For instance, I worry about the following: Will the budget cuts make it unaffordable for me to continue my journey the way I had hoped to? Will the journey take longer and if it does what other areas of my life will I have to put on hold? Are the sacrifices I am making good enough? Too great? Too selfish??
Everyday I wake up and reassess my situation and I think I have to stop analyzing it as much as I do and just face each day as it's own day!! I think the best way for me to do this is to put things in perspective on paper again. I have my educational plan in writing but because of budget cuts that changed forcing me to wait an additional year for transfer. I believe this is what has me feeling so discombobulated.
There is one really cool aspect to the change and that is when I transfer, Brittany will be finished with high school. This opens up my possibilities because I won't have to stay in San Diego if I don't want to. This means that while I am guaranteed my admission to UCSD, I am free to apply elsewhere and may end up somewhere completely different. And the prospect of this is very exciting to me because I have often said that while I look forward to completing my goal of becoming Dr. Tammy, I want to make the journey there fun, exciting and memorable. It's gotta be fun because there are going to be so many years dedicated to this process that if it were anything less it wouldn't be worth it.
On another note I have been reviewing the study guide for the MCAT. Medical College Admissions Test. For those of you who don't know this test is extremely important because the score I achieve will help to open doors to some of the best medical schools in our country. The test takes 5 hours and 45 minutes, plus
a 1 hour lunch period and 20 minutes for breaks. That's 7 hours and 5 minutes dedicated to the process of taking the test. Sounds like fun. Fortunately, I consider myself an excellent test taker. I have always done particularly well on standardized tests and this one looks achievable to me. TRUE STORY: I took my real estate licensing exam with the State for the first time and passed. Now that's not the amazing part. The amazing part is I was in excruciating pain and could barely walk or sit and I was taking Ibuprofen which was useless. I tested for I believe 3 hours(maybe 4) and then drove myself to the emergency room where they performed emergency surgery on me to remove a tumor in my left ovary. It has twisted and cut off my blood supply in that area. Infact, they removed the left ovary and fallopian tube with it. The surgery is similar to a C-Section and I was hospitalized for 5 days afterward. I actually received my passing test score in the hospital. So tests don't scare me is my point. I just have to be prepared and study and memorize.
What is the test like?? Well it consists of Verbal Reasoning, Physical Science, Writing Samples. and Biological Sciences. I really have to focus on my biochemistry and math but I got this. I will be studying hard for this from October(next month) until the test and trust me I will be blogging about this aspect of my journey ALOT!
Today I was encouraged by a friend who is attending nursing school. She shared a little story with me on how she was able to assist a med student during clinicals by giving them information regarding the patient that was unknown to the them. I love it when nurses and doctors work together because I have heard to many stories of them being polorized groups. I have so much to learn!!
